Hands Tied as I Watch You Die

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Long time friend,

How I love you,

How I want to save you.

I watch as you fight your battle

Against the body that attacks you;

I long to ease your pain.

 

Long time friend

I know you haven’t the energy

To clean up your things

Because your body hurts.

I ask if I can help

And am rejected.

I ask your other half

To help you

And I get excuses.

It’s so hard to watch

As the piles grow around you

Pushing you off your own bed.

How can you heal

When you can’t even

Sleep properly?

 

Long time friend

I know alcohol makes

Everything feel warm

And maybe even fuzzy.

But is it safe to drink

When your meds

Are so strong?

Can your body heal

While processing it?

 

Long time friend

I want nothing but

The very best for you.

And yet I feel as though

I am watching you

Slowly waste away.

There’s not a damn thing

I am able to do.

Both nature and you

Have tied my hands.

The knot so precise

And so tight

I am left with

Nothing but my prayers.

 

8 thoughts on “Hands Tied as I Watch You Die

  1. This is so broken, and raw, and authentic. It’s beautifully devastating, I’m sorry for your pain.

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    1. Thank you. It was just one of those moments where I had to write my thoughts down before I drowned in them.

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  2. So Amazing, Loving, And Most Of All With Compassion. I Know It Hurts That You Can’t Fix It. I’m So Sorry.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. It’s definitely a hard situation and I hate not being able to do anything about it. It’s like being benched on the sidelines.

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      1. Oh Wow!! I Can Understand That.

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  3. The pain of not being able to assist your true friend is devastating to say the least. You bring such hardness out with each worded verse. I am sorry you have to accept and understand the pain involved that attacks your senses.

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    1. Thanks so much. I appreciate your words. It’s definitely hard to process.

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      1. Yes, it is hard from your words Heather.

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