Raising Autism

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Y’all, I’m not gonna lie…

Raising a kiddo with Autism is no joke.  My oldest child has high functioning Autism and she just turned 17.  Most girls her age are exploring makeup and talking about boys.  My girl watches My Little Pony and collects Pokemon cards.

And I am totally okay with that…

I’m actually thankful she’s not growing up as fast as many girls today seem to be.  I’m also thankful she’s so high functioning most people don’t even realize she is Autistic until they spend quality time with her.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve shocked someone who just met my daughter by dropping the “She’s Autistic” bomb.  I’ve actually had a couple people ask if I was joking with them.

No, new person I just met,

I am not joking with you. 

My kid has Autism. 

This is our life.

Days like today, for example, I really feel it.  Today we had yet another round of “Mom, you’re digging that bobbie pin into my scalp on purpose, and I’m going to make sure you remember you did it on purpose for the rest of your life.”

*Insert Exasperated Sigh Here*

I know she can’t help it.  And most days I’m calm and patient.  Other days, I’m tired or not feeling well, and I completely blow it.  I’m not as patient as I want to be.  I snap off my words or use my “Mom Voice”.  And each time that happens, I just feel terrible inside.  I beat myself up for not being the “SUPER MOM” I truly want to be.

I love my girl more than I can express in words.  Regardless of what anyone thinks about Autism, I honestly wouldn’t change my daughter in any way.  Yes, there are difficult days, like today.  There are also so many more beautiful days.  My girl has this unique personality and this gentle spirit I truly believe exist solely because she has Autism.  If I were to change her diagnosis, I would also change the other parts of her that make her who she is.

I’ll keep the hard days…

Some days are just harder than others.  I know I need to seek to be more patient and understanding.  However, I also know I have to give myself some grace.  No parent is perfect, and I think parents of special needs children are more likely to hate on themselves for their own imperfections than anyone else.  But just as we have to give our children grace because of their special needs, perhaps we need to give ourselves more grace as we raise them.

10 thoughts on “Raising Autism

  1. My niece, has high functioning Autism. To the outside world to basically appears normal. she’s 25 now and has done music at university, and has become an opera singer…
    On stage she is very good ,outgoing and confident. Actually in her real life she is private, quite, keeps, to herself, and has trouble forming people relationships, and suffers from anxieties and depression, worrying about how she is going to fit in to the world around………..

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    1. It’s nice to know someone understands what I’m talking about. Thank you for sharing. I worry about my girl because school is such a struggle for her, she has no desire to explore college. I’m not sure how our transition into adulthood will go, but I know whatever happens, I’ll never regret raising a kiddo with Autism. It’s given me a perspective on life I never would have gained without her to teach me.

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      1. Yes I understand, my sister is so proud and with her daughter, …….she’s amazing….

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      2. That’s really special. I’m glad you shared with me. Thank you so much for taking the time to tell me about your niece.

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      3. My pleasure Heather, I’m a proud uncle….

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      4. It’s really great you’re so supportive! I know your sister must really appreciate it!

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      5. Me and my niece are besties ……

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  2. The Eclectic Contrarian June 4, 2019 — 8:14 pm

    I bet she’s as awesome as any non-autistic person. They’re a blessing! They really are! A very intelligent people you just have to get to know on a deep level.

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    1. She’s amazing! It’s challenging at times, but I wouldn’t change a thing.

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